Everything in my life seemed upside down. My business and working life was no longer exciting me, working out seemed mundane, and hanging out with friends felt like a chore.
I started asking myself, do I really have the success that I thought I would have? Am I actually creating an impact on the world? Am I happy? What’s the point of all this anyway?
I had a phases of my quarter life crisis;
A phase when I feel trapped by my life choices, like my job, relationship, or both. I'm living on “autopilot" and anxiety nights.
A phase after I get a sense of “I’ve got to get out of this” and feel a growing sense that change is possible if I just take a leap.
And hit the phase I quit my job at that time because I don't want my degree defines me what I have to be, end the relationship, or break the commitment that’s making me feel trapped. Then I detach and enter a “time out” period where try to rediscover who I am and who I want to be.
The monster I fought had many heads: I questioned whether I was pursuing the right career, if I will be happy with someone that I've been spent time with for years, or if I enjoy with new life that far from closest friend or family.
But then I fully embraced the sentiment of entering my quarter life crisis. I made lot of list: Dye my hair, regularly work out, go for long road trip and driving by myself, or even trekking hundreds kilometers in Annapurna Circuit Trek, have a job that I love and I can develope my skill through it. Yea, like "I do what I love".
I made promise to myself to put my goals and values, above any desire to be accepted or feel "attractive".
And I got all of that, and so much more.
A beautifully dysfuctional ever-connected family, a hear beat that felt in every single solo step I had, and a renewed sense of unwavering confidence.
Confidence in my mind, confidence in my body, and confidence in my will to stand up and be heard.
Now, It's seem a time to begin rebuilding my life slowly but surely. Try to develop new commitments that are more in line with my interests and aspirations.
A whole new set of challenge await. My goal won't be clear or tangible as getting miles in my step on getting somewhere out of nowhere. My small wins won't be as simple as only needing to dig one cat hole in a second. Just DONT COMPARE SOMEONE'S PATH with anyone else's. Everyone has their on life with consequences.
the quarter-life crisis doesn’t have to be something to fear. One person shows me that it can actually be the thing I need to experience to take my life to the next level.
2 months before my 26th birthday, I am started to realized my life purpose doesn’t yell at me, it whispers. MacNaughton says. “You need to be listening for what’s whispering to you and what tingles the heart.” It can be tricky to recognize my own voice after I’ve spent most of your life listening to others. But I learnt to trust and belive in myself and capabilities. Be true, be real, and be myself is something that I have to keep on my long journey.
I'm terrified but I'm also so freaking excited to face my next level of surviving life ahead!!!
