Refuel An Empty Soul

So there we go! Another month of boredom that drive us being an asshole and cold blood human. Ehmmm!! Chill chill! Thats only me. LOL.

This past two months is the hardest one for me so far. Why? I start to feel so empty, I have no idea if I need a people around me or simply I need to escape to a daily routine this past six months.

For some reason I feel like I don't need people around, I enjoy being alone at room spending much time with my books, strolling around while cycling, watching sunset in a summer hot damn breezy Tangerang. But, on the other hand I miss people, I miss when I tolerate or engage in small talk, but can get very engaged in intimate conversations.

So, Am I lonely or simply get bored?

BACK HOME

I am kind of person who always think that Home is a comfort zone that I will touch as rare as possible. And this time I decide to go back home for straight 10 days, just to finding a balance of life. Give myself time to get the levels right, and give myself time to figure out what I actually need. It takes experimentation to get it right, and it takes listening to my authentic self like I have — perhaps — never listened before. Back home maybe is a point where I can found a balance or flexibility (?).

COMMUTING WITH NATURE AND ITS PEOPLE

I do believe that my body is more connected to the earth than I think. I breathe the air around me. The sun warms me. The elements, weather and environment effect me. I share a primal and spiritual connection with nature. So, why not go into nature to re-energize my soul? Listen to the rippling stream, the wind in the trees, and bird chirping in a forest. Connected with the love one to having a low key convo.

I go to a mountain, away from a hectic city. To escape, engage well with the nature and its people. I am so happy and blessed to be surrounded by people who always happy to see me smile and excited to take a breath in a nature. So here are the stories of how a commute with a nature and its people.

Gravel Road for A 'Road Bike'.

Back home means, old friends meet up. I met Akbar (@en.journal) my junior while we were in high school and ask him to have a riding trip to a green-y place while I'm in Bandung. And at the weekend a day after I arrived home, he text me to join him to have a trip to Gambung. Since I know that he is a gravel cyclist so I just make sure to him that I can pass the gravel safely. And yes, that was kind of journey with Lale and 4 man who always be boys on the saddle. That was the best and gonna be memorable 100K riding with them and definitely Lale which super tough to deal with a gravel road and a 'little' crash on the way back home to Bandung because of motorbike rider who absolutely have no idea how to drive properly in a main road.

Breakfast Hike

I am happy to have her in my life since day one. She is the one who always down to my unrealistic opinion and idea. I am luckiest girl on earth who had an experience to become her daughter. This time I tell her that I will make her a sourdough sandwich for breakfast, but We have to eat it in Jayagiri. That idea just came up from my head when I went to KHAS ROTI SELAI and tried nice food and warm ambiance there. And yes! She's down for the breakfast! Wooohooo!!! So in early morning, I made her a sandwich and drove to Jayagiri, than hike for 6 km. I am so proud of her since she still can survive with the elevation with her 60 years old body! Je t'aime mama! <3

Recovery Ride

After tiring and hurt ride to Gambung, I ask my friend (@fuadhamidan) to have a recovery ride to Puntang. Because I still remember Puntang is one of the nice place to escape since it has a nice rivers and fresh water ever. The road is really nice for Lale and yea of course I did not put Lale in a hard place after his crash. Unfortunately we can't get inside the area because it is closed due to pandemic situation. But, I am being so super excited and curious in a same time with every corner that possibly to be explored. So I jump to the small river with a chill water and NO! I did not rode Lale for sure! I feel so recharge by simply touch the water and wash my face with the spring water.

Stay a Night And Eat a Lot.

Ote is one of most important woman in my life after my mom. She is the one who always pick up my call and answer every single shitty question that I've asked. It was a tiring night and she texted me and asked me to stay overnight. And she told me "I have a lot of food here". Since she is living away from her parents and I said "Damn you! OK! I'm on my way". Ate so much cookies, chocolate, carbs, and sugary thing. Well, yes night well spent with tummy full loaded by unhealthy stuff and had a BATAGOR! for breakfast hahahaha. 

A 'Casual' Ride

After a day being a pig by having a batagor for breakfast, so this day I decide to having a casual riding to a chilly place. I text Fuad to go to a chilly place in east Bandung. And yea! He is down for it. But, nope nope! It wasn't a casual riding, it was turned out to damn short yet tiring ride. We were bonked and definitely me because I hold the hurt of my wound in my back leg. Casual ride is not really a casual but we are happy because we had such a nice sunset and summer breeze with an 'akamsi' around the corner of the mountain.

CONTROL AN ENVIRONMENT

While we can’t control the people around us, we can (to an extent) learn how to manage and control the environments in which we find ourselves. The easiest way to do this is by always making sure you are in the environment you need to thrive. This could come down to something as simple as always shutting your office door, or removing yourself from the office entirely — in order to get the quiet you need to focus. Just away from the boredom for a while and BE SANE! You can't force yourself when you realized you are full of toxic and negativity around you. Just escape! Treat yourself to have a better sanity. 

THE BLESSED ONE

I do aware that I was being crap during this pandemic. Life is not always easy to live, but the opportunity to do so is a blessing beyond comprehension. Nothing is better than find a thing that makes you feel grateful. Reminding myself of my everyday blessings is a great way to practice gratitude. It helps me remember all the good things in my lives and keep me moving forward. I am the blessed one to having a genuine yet caring people around me. Had a low key convo in short-long low key tiny holiday. Share a laugh, experience, meal, coffee, or even a new knowledge to wake our brain up while having a lunch.

BE GRATEFUL

Happiness is coming from our self not the other one. They can help you, but the vibes must be triggered by you. I am grateful to have a time to recharge my soul in the middle of the emptiness and pressure in a same time.

SPECIAL THANKS TO;

• One and only Mama who always welcome me warmly and feed me with my favorite meals everyday.
• Papa who always wake up to open the door in an early morning to cycling and share a snacks together.
• Akbar, Adit, Bani, and Arab who being such a cool cycling squad on gravel road.
• Fuad, the one who always down for every gabut things and for sure a cycling activities in Tangerang and Bandung. 
• Ote who always feed me with carbs and sugar.
• Achop who accompany me explore a coffee shop in Bandung.
• Alif, for his experimental coffee and other beverages. I do enjoy for all caffeine rush that has been made by him.
• Emon who spend an hours to check Lale and share his experience that inspire me to do more cycling and get further.

I Never Want A Car Even More

LIVING ON THE VAN

When I was kid I always want to have a big car where I can living in. People call it "Living on Van", yea! That something that mostly adventurous person who love to be jumper want it so badly.

Until there is a time when I start to be called "ADULT" and my mom asked me if I want to buy a house or a car?

Then I said NO... I want to spend my money for an experience not a thing. She knows that I travel a lot like crazy, I could spend my whole life to leave a comfort zone and am OK to stay in a place far from home, meet new people, have a lot of life stories.

Growing up in Indonesia, mostly people depending on a car or motorbike to go anywhere even for a 5 km distance. You could get a license at 17, and most of us did it. If you don’t have your driver’s license, you’ll find yourself left out of events, asking your parents for rides, or navigating a near non-existent public transit infrastructure which are sometime is 'inconvenience' for most of Indonesian. So, no wonder all of peoples need (or wants) a car(s).

Source: Nick and Val Wheatley

TWO WHEELS, NO MATTER WHAT

When I lived in Bandung, I love to do cycling occasionally because Bandung has a lovely weather to do it and those hilly and the mountain are worth the sweat to be deal with. Until three years ago when I moved to Jakarta, I never thought that I will deal with a big city life and even commuting with bike because the weather and the people feels so crazy for me at that time. I knew the cycling culture would be intense going in, but what I wasn’t prepared for is how it would redefine my view of 'commuting' by bike until 2 years ago I move to Alam Sutera Tangerang.

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When the first time I moved there, all the signage says "BEST TOWN FOR WALK AND CYCLING", and I was wonder "Seriously???". Because of the weather I don't think that this town is best to do so. LOL.

Most of time I commute by grab, there is no convenience public transportation in Alam Sutera. It is pretty hard to get place to place especially in Alam Sutera. So last year I impulsively decided to buy one mountain bike in Decathlon because I consider want to go anywhere because I'm kind of a girl who love to say "You can go fast, but I can go everywhere". I named him 'TeeBee". I love him so freaking much because its so comfortable to ride and I can go anywhere with him. I promise to myself to commute anywhere I go with him.  Yes, I committed to my self and TeeBee at least I decrease intensity of using Grab/ Gojek/ Taxi, unless its urgent and I have no choice.

Hey! Its him TeeBee!

TO PROTECT AND PRESERVE THE PLANET

Most of people do a lot of campaign to save the earth or preserve the planet BUT they are so lazy to walk, cycling, or using mass public transportation because it is so hot and takes time to do so especially for urban people in a big Cities in Indonesia.

Cities around the world are grappling with ever-increasing amounts of traffic, and traditionally the solution to this problem was always build more roads. I believe it’s time to change that mindset: cars are a luxury, not a right. We should treat them as such. People, and the planet, need that to happen.

Riding did such an amazing thing, it is reduces air pollutants (walking and biking emit no greenhouse gases). Reduces noise pollution and congestion. Reduces the need for new parking lots and roadways. Saves valuable green space from development. So can you imagine if 50% of people inside the city cycling to AT LEAST COMMUTE to work or for groceries?

Are you guys still wanna show to your grand children this kind of view?

I NEVER WANT A CAR EVEN MORE

Since I living here, I realize that I love to enjoy the sunshine more often, commute everywhere, aware to my surrounding because I didn't go too fast yet too slow, move my body, sweating, get tan line, and produce endorphin a lot which definitely makes my mentality better and happy everyday.

I never believe that just because of a bicycle, I feel so much better than before, physically yet mentally. Realized that cycling is not only fun and a great way to lead a healthy lifestyle, it can also be a key of social change, it can be shaping the future of humanity.

I seriously in love again with cycling. Exactly a same feeling when I was elementary school, my dad bough me a nice cute yellow pastel bike with a basket. Start from it I said to my dad to stop sent me to school because I want to ride my bike (FYI, my parents decided to move my school that closer to our house, to make them easier to sent/pick me up or manage the time, so no issues to riding, right? LOL) and yes I rode the bike almost everyday and I still remember I am happiest girl on earth once I riding my bike, even at that time my parents kind of worry to the only one (and naughtiest) daughter ever so sometimes they let me rode my bike but they are behind me to stalk LOL.

I know TeeBee is not my first bike but TeeBee is a starter of my happy machine after so long, the things that I regret is I completely stopped riding 7 years ago. And I promise to myself that will never happen again.

“Ride as much or as little, as long or as short as you feel. But ride”

- Eddy Merckx, Belgian road cycling legend

A year to be aware WHERE WE ACTUALLY ARE.

2020. A year that people tend to be so high expectation, ambitious, greedy, antipathy, whatever you named it.
But too bad, 2020 is opened with such a crazy situation.
Devastating floods in Jakarta.
Australian bush fire.
Ukrainian jetliner crash in Iran.
Death of Kobe Bryant in helicopter crash.
Communal riots in Delhi.
Taal volcano eruption.
Now, Corona virus, a pandemic that ruined every single plan and expectation.
Are we ready to face everything ahead? Not sure if we are so.

2020. Its a joke said some peoples around me.
A year of a negative growth.
A year of disappointment.
A year of a stressful.
A year of cruel world.
A year of a hopeless.
A year full of desperation.

Are we reflect on the roller coaster we’ve been riding for the past 3 months? There have been dips, peaks, and some seriously rattling loops, am I right?

Me? Yes I do what people doing in 2020, travel plan, expectation. working plan, everything!
All suddenly gone. All gone.

At some point I wonder maybe this year is a year of REFLECT our ambition and expectation.
To value our self-awareness. It’s enlightening to know why we do things, to recognize our triggers, to have clarity about what’s going on in our head and heart. Our willingness to believe we’re already ENOUGH. To be not greedy that make our wants become needs.
Be aware, where we are, what we are, why we are.....

2020 taught me so much, how to be patient, to accept a purely life when everything start out of expectation, to get in touch with myself thru myself. To remind myself that I can't be fail at being myself. I know, self-awareness sucks. BUT hopefully, we now see how we are sabotaging ourselves, how we are limiting our life with our mindsets about time and abilities, and how we need to have more respect for the resources that allow us to live our life.

We are frantically to earn enough (a lot) money but a things we are too busy too enjoy. Balance come, when you are stop, look at your life, and assess the things you genuinely want for yourself and your family. Be intentional. Work less. Live more.


2020 for me is a year of
Learning
Acceptance
Patient
Brave
Love
and aware where I actually am.

Wineglass bay, Tasmania

Quarter Life Crisis

Everything in my life seemed upside down. My business and working life was no longer exciting me, working out seemed mundane, and hanging out with friends felt like a chore.

I started asking myself, do I really have the success that I thought I would have? Am I actually creating an impact on the world? Am I happy? What’s the point of all this anyway?

I had a phases of my quarter life crisis;

A phase when I feel trapped by my life choices, like my job, relationship, or both. I'm living on “autopilot" and anxiety nights.

A phase after I get a sense of “I’ve got to get out of this” and feel a growing sense that change is possible if I just take a leap.

And hit the phase I quit my job at that time because I don't want my degree defines me what I have to be, end the relationship, or break the commitment that’s making me feel trapped. Then I detach and enter a “time out” period where try to rediscover who I am and who I want to be.

The monster I fought had many heads: I questioned whether I was pursuing the right career, if I will be happy with someone that I've been spent time with for years, or if I enjoy with new life that far from closest friend or family.

But then I fully embraced the sentiment of entering my quarter life crisis. I made lot of list: Dye my hair, regularly work out, go for long road trip and driving by myself, or even trekking hundreds kilometers in Annapurna Circuit Trek, have a job that I love and I can develope my skill through it. Yea, like "I do what I love".

I made promise to myself to put my goals and values, above any desire to be accepted or feel "attractive".

And I got all of that, and so much more.

A beautifully dysfuctional ever-connected family, a hear beat that felt in every single solo step I had, and a renewed sense of unwavering confidence.

Confidence in my mind, confidence in my body, and confidence in my will to stand up and be heard.

Now, It's seem a time to begin rebuilding my life slowly but surely. Try to develop new commitments that are more in line with my interests and aspirations.

A whole new set of challenge await. My goal won't be clear or tangible as getting miles in my step on getting somewhere out of nowhere. My small wins won't be as simple as only needing to dig one cat hole in a second. Just DONT COMPARE SOMEONE'S PATH with anyone else's. Everyone has their on life with consequences.

the quarter-life crisis doesn’t have to be something to fear. One person shows me that it can actually be the thing I need to experience to take my life to the next level.

2 months before my 26th birthday, I am started to realized my life purpose doesn’t yell at me, it whispers. MacNaughton says. “You need to be listening for what’s whispering to you and what tingles the heart.” It can be tricky to recognize my own voice after I’ve spent most of your life listening to others. But I learnt to trust and belive in myself and capabilities. Be true, be real, and be myself is something that I have to keep on my long journey.

I'm terrified but I'm also so freaking excited to face my next level of surviving life ahead!!!

Coddiwomple

While exploring beautiful places and meeting interesting new people, we are bound to fall in love everyday when traveling. We fall in love with the place, foods, culture, weather, beaches, mountains, bars, and most importantly, with each other.

Mt. Wellington, Hobart, Tasmania

Do you ever feel that actually you go nowhere and at some point there is a tiring phase and you wanna go back home really really soon. Or you are on your way somewhere nowhere with no clue and you even don't know clearly why you go there but unexpectedly when you were there with a stranger and you feel like its a place that you can call home?

I am a solo traveler that looking for a way back home, ya my truly home that I can't live without. A place to lean on, a place where my comfort place is there, a place that I never be bored of.

I am travel to anywhere that might be doesn't makes any sense to anyone. But I am happy that I took a chance to try, to walk away from a place that I thought a comfort zone.

I went to Australia to escape, to find something new, to take a challenge leaving far from home alone (again) after 6 months can't travel because shit happen while I'm at Annapurna. I never expect that this trip will leave a deep marks on my heart. I met beautiful peoples on my trip, I've seen amazing landscape, I enjoyed delicious meal and drinks. Yes, and also I left my piece of heart and feeling somewhere there.

I had beautiful experience while I'm in Aussie, like an experience that I never had before, an experience that never be expected, and experience that change my life and way of thinking. 

Can you imagine, you left your origin place with cloud on your head, and you back home with a sunshine on your eyes and clear sky on your head. Positive vibes is in whole of your body.

Yes! That's what I feel! It is a crazy feeling like I wonder what it can be happen to myself, it is kind of magic that not explainable.

The more you travel, the more you see it isn't more things you need. Instead, you need peoples and their stories inside your stories (to be) on your long and exhausting journey. We might need an airplanes, ship, or train but we also need grace, that reminds you that you are has a freedom to exploring and you will never ever out of place.

One of the best things about traveling is the people you meet. It is always be reason why we have to go back and meet each other again. Its not only meet, the possibilities of having mood of changing your life feels so real. I met so many people while I'm travel, they made my day everyday. I am blessed to met them on my trip. So let me show you who they are;

Yuke is my high school lovely chick that out of sudden contact me directly when she knew that I'm touch down Sydney. We had nice dinner with Sydney hipster vibes. It was mixed feeling when I met her. Simply because I really have no idea what to do in Sydney and humbly she text me and ask to hang out. She always be kind of lovely girl that I knew.

I met him in the middle of confusion Sydney life, He is one of dude that telling me an Italian shitty jokes while we chillin on a park in the middle of his break working time. He cooked such  grilled salmon with nice salad which is my favorite. Daniel is a truly Italian chef that rockin my Sydney culinary trip. Another nice thing is on my last day in Sydney we went to fish market because I'm just craving for fish and chips like crazy! And he just laughing and teasing me because I amazed with BIG BIG BIG BIG anything there.

AAAHHH!! TASSIE LIFE! It is a destiny! I love my Tassie trip like crazy! I met these crazy travel mates in the middle of nowhere. Yenti is a unbelievable Indonesian woman who amazingly has a nice stories and balanced my travel crazy life, she is my navigator while doing a road trip in Tassie, I met her on a Indonesian traveler community.

 

Ron! A Hongkong dude that terror me with his text on couchsurfing because he want to join my road trip in Tassie, HAHAHAHA. Well, eventually I pick him up at Devenport and I will never regret to let him in on my road trip because he is kind of travel mate who love to read and doing research, he tell me a treasure place to visit that suprisingly amazing! Who need google when we have Ron? HAHAHAHAHAH

   

AAAAHHH!!! How I start with these dudes? A man exactly behind me! I call him monkey with a nice taste of Italian jokes and of course his pasta! (oh! God! I have lot of Italian dudes in my life! HELP!) Emanuele is a guy that made my Tassie life become so much interesting and fun, he is kind of annoying yet caring in a same time, imagine I have to washed my car in the middle of the night because I have no time and I have to leave Tassie on the next day early morning, and guess who washed it??? Yes! This dude did it for me! I will never forget a moment when I put a coins to the wash machines and scream to him "Dude! Times gonna up!!!" and he just reply me like "Put another  dollar! Hurry!!!!" LOL! Thats such a funny yet touching moment. 

And the other funny Germany dude behind is Dawid A.K.A David (he enjoyed to be called as David LOL). He is kind of an innocent guy who exploring a new life and world out of nowhere. He is plain paper with a steady ear to listen. 

Well, There is a time when we hungry AF and we looking for a food and after 5 hours driving to Launceston we end up with a burgers in bloody McDonalds! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA we become zombie after they had dead animals Tasmania burger LOL! It is a funniest moment in the middle of cold Tassie.

Landed at Melbourne with a tiring body and Tassie mood. Jaime pick me up and let me rest at his apartment and guess what? I JUST KNOW THAT KENDID and TAMI (my senior while in collague) are his friend!!! DAFUQ! Such a small world! Ah ya! Jaime was studied in Indonesia for a year so that was nice feeling when someone speak Indonesian after I had to spoke with a Merino language in Tassie. Kendid is a person who never change since the first time I knew him on my first day of school 8 years ago. His manners and positive vibes always bring me joy and confidence, I still remember when I applied for scholarship abroad, he is the only senior who told me "Lysa! Its piece of cake for you! You can do it!" And when I got that scholarship he is the first one that knew I got it (instead of my parents LOL). Well, Me and Kendid has a nice time in Melb, and again he always encourage me to do a happy life, and he tried to bring me stay and working in Melbourne LOL. Tami? A cool girl that never change, like always and ever.

Last but not least, My last day in Melbourne was well spent with the most beautiful people around me. Elliott is the only American guy who bring me joy and happiness, my favorite peanut butter in my Aussie trip, a person who inspire me A LOT to do good things! I don't even believe there is a human like him exist in this cruel world, such an amazing human being, humble, talented, tender, and good listener. He always be patient to listen my tired statement, when I said "Ah... I don't know how to explain" and he always said "Thats OK....". His energy is magic! He can bring a positive vibes and change your mind and life instantly just simply shared his life experiences and be GENUINE! Anyone who met him in their life is lucky!

Mars, a lovely young chick Italian-African raised in Germany that I've met at Elliott's house. I still remember when I knocked Elliot's house to get in and she opened the door for me because Elliott just away from home for martial art. I still remember how cute she is and her nice taste of music that I can enjoy it in my whole life for sure.

I am beyond happy to met them in my life. I still can't belive that my 2 weeks trip in aussie with their stories instantly add new way of life or at least a fresh point of view.
I'm rarely post a selfie picture. But now, for the first time in forever I post this massive group selfie(s) bcos this trip is amazing and memoriable. A trip that open my heart and eyes widely that life is extremely beautiful when u dare yourself to playing outside. I'm blessed to have them in my life to painted my plain sketch book bcome so colorful.

We fall in love with each experience that we've got while traveling. We take a picture not only to show the world that we've been there, done that, or just checked a bucket list. Sometimes we take a picture to remind how blessed we are because we have those amazing experience.

I am a sucker of good and beautiful stories- and what makes a better story than falling in love in an exotic foreign place or simply enjoyed glass (or more) of wine in a comfortable and chill place to stay? 

Spent Leave Days in Bandung

It has been more than 6 months of 2019.

Ups and downs, fast and slow, move and stop, right and wrong.

I asked myself what actually I am running for? Why planning is matter? Why everything must be exactly the same as I planned? Why I expect something? Why I did same mistake? Why I struggle for something that MAYBE isn't worth it?

This month is one of craziest month during this year, extremely crazy. Why? First, my working life was really tight and so many things to do. Second, my personal life was disappointing and fucked up. Don't ask me why because it is pretty complicated. LOL.

Because of that I planned to go somewhere to escape, yes! Take a break and breathe.

I planned to go to Philliphines to swim with a whale shark and eat some crazy food there.

I also planned to go to Vietnam to sleep on the boat in the middle of Ha long bay.

Lastly, I planned to go to Belitung just wanna see one of the biggest stand up paddle competition in Indonesia.

Well, everything is messed up! And I end up going home with my 6 days leave. Disappointing? I thought so, but I was wrong.

So, I decide to go to Bandung and join my teammates to Pocari Sweat Bandung Marathon.

I am really happy and feeling energized, because I felt my teammates transfer a positive vibes and a new sprits to me.

We closed the day wih a nice coffee latte and Tahu goreng ;)

And after that, I spent my another days to enjoy Bandung in my old way. Woke up super early morning to catch the sunrise, feel the summer breeze, drink an ice coffee latte, and enjoy my childhood memories.

I took some pictures that always be my favorite view, when the street is no traffic, people walking humbly and having a low key conversation while sipped their hot sweetened coffee, everyone breathes with a clean oxigen, and we enjoy when the crazy day is not started yet.

We back to the street! I still love to hear the sound of analog shutter sound.

Jalan Braga, early morning, 5:40 AM

An iconic street artist in Bandung.

It is nice to see everyone can walk almost everywhere.

Conventional news paper? Why now? Its always convenience for your eyes, no?

Jalan Asia Afrika with no cars or motorbikes at all!

Savoy homan Hotel with a shy sunrise.

Mesjid Agung Bandung with a clear sky.

  

Bandung morning weather is always great. I know why a lot of people love this city.

After 3 hours sightseeing in a city, I had a nice coffee morning in a hidden coffee place which is pretty nice and good to chill and breath nicely in a middle of the city.
It is SPADAA KOFFIE , the location is in the middle of the city, just click it to make it easier anyway ;)
I enjoyed the place, is a vintage yet warm tone with a summer breeze everywhere. Love it!

Confident enough? :p

As I told you, I was wrong if I thought that my leave days will be shit. I would say this is pretty amazing. I'm feeling good, feeling positive while I was surounded by negativities lately, feeling fresh to breathe with nice Bandung weather.

Now I realized that basically happiness is not come from the other, it comes from your gut and mind.
If you found someone that makes you happy even more, so that means you are lucky ;)
But my advice, stay away from a bad influence, stay away from negativities, it will kills you, kill your personality, kill your body and soul. Be good! Be ok!
The key to being happy is knowing you have the power to choose what to accept and what to let go.

This current situation is giving me an opportunity to re-evaluate what I want and I need.
I am grateful with everything that happened to me.

Hi Bandung! Terimakasih ya!

A Portrait of Happiness

Its a portrait

Portrait of happiness.

Portrait of smile.

Portrait of freedom.

Everyone always find a happiness without knowing what hapiness is, whitout knowing what can make you smile maybe can make you happy.

Everyone always guessing.

Guessing something unsure and they never know before.

Everyone always finding, finding a happiness.

And in the middle of finding they did not found a happiness. They lost. But realized that they know nothing.